Today, I am preparing for surgery to have a tumor removed from my right kidney.  I have been blessed that it was found early, and I have a top-notch surgeon.  I am doubly blessed that many friends and members of Christ’s body have been praying for me.  I believe in the power of prayer.

Here are a few thoughts that percolate in my mind as I prepare for my 12:30 pm surgery:

I am thankful that I have a wonderful wife who supports me and looks out for me;

I am feeling like somewhat of a burden to family today;

I am worried about being out of control:  As often as I have tried to turn over control of my life to God, I have a really hard time being out of control; I don’t fear death, but I do fear the idea of having no control while I’m laying in the hospital;

I feel weak today;

I hate anesthesia and worry about it;

I am contemplating hearing voices while I am under anesthesia this day:  Will it open me to new voices?  For some reason this has been on my mind for the past month:

Can I be a good patient?

How soon can I return to work?

Can I turn over control and discernment and return to daily life when it is best to do it?

My blog will present mostly reruns this next week, and a few poems that I have written in April.  I seek your prayers.  I do believe in prayer.   –Tom